Written February 5, 1936. The letter was one metre long. Dazai’s previous letter to Satō can be read here. Translated by Laurie Raye.
Original Text: 記憶の宮殿 / Memory Palace
Dear Sir,
I will not waste your time by telling any lies or uttering even the smallest of falsehoods.
I am only ever thinking about the act of dying and the material anguish that piles up around me. Mr Satō, I am relying solely on you. I know I owe you an immense debt of gratitude. I have produced excellent work so far, and I will continue to write even more superb novels, but right now I don’t even want to live for another ten years! I’m a decent person. I am holding on, but up until now fortune has not been on my side and I have come all the way up to the brink of death. If I receive the Akutagawa Prize, I would be moved to tears by your compassion. Consequently, no matter what kind of suffering I must endure, I could keep on living. I would feel revitalised. Please help me, don’t make fun of me. Mr Satō, you are the only one who can save me.
Please don’t despise me, I will definitely repay you.
Would it be better if I paid you a visit in person? Just tell me what day to come and when, neither heavy snow nor pouring rain could keep me from your door. Trembling and full of despair, I offer this prayer.
Respectfully yours,
Homeless Sparrow Osamu
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